Post by anthony brown on Nov 1, 2011 16:43:15 GMT -5
This all started with me being sick a few years ago. So after 2 years and feeling the strongest I have since then, WHAM another kick in the butt. When I was at the grands I was on the gate and was shaking like a leaf, I thought it was due to being nervous. My Buddy from vintage thought I was going to fall over. Left leg was shaking so bad. Well I finished out the weekend, thought that was the end of it, boy was I wrong. Turns out that was the sighn of things to come. TOld the doctor all of this and he said that was the first sign of all of it, but I had no idea.
3 weeks ago at work, my face started twitching, arm went numb.So went to the ER and bloodwoork showed nothing. Cat scan showed nothing. I made an appt with the nerve doctor. He checks me out tells me my left side is still weaker than the right. But this is the kicker. Turns out calcium deposits are building up where the old tumor was. Pushing down on the nerve casuing mini-seizures. I ask him can I race he says yes, but my left side will never be full strength. This explains alot. My short term memeory is shot, and it also expalins why sometimes I can balance on the gate, and sometimes I cant. He wants to put me on meds (oh joy) anti seizure ones. But I also came to the conclusion that mocing down might be better due to all of this. I made a vow- I would never let the opinions of others force me to re class. Only if there was something wrong with me. Well geuss what there is. haha (doctor just called with my cat scan approval from insurance.)
This is the first time I have let all of this out. I am happy that I can still race,but with the left side never being the same, it made sense to re class to intermediate. Maybe this is a sign for me not to focus on the racing aspect but work on prooting, I do not know. Funny thing is I can accept this situation without being upset. After all there is more to life than bmx. THere is life itself, and I am grateful to have that.
3 weeks ago at work, my face started twitching, arm went numb.So went to the ER and bloodwoork showed nothing. Cat scan showed nothing. I made an appt with the nerve doctor. He checks me out tells me my left side is still weaker than the right. But this is the kicker. Turns out calcium deposits are building up where the old tumor was. Pushing down on the nerve casuing mini-seizures. I ask him can I race he says yes, but my left side will never be full strength. This explains alot. My short term memeory is shot, and it also expalins why sometimes I can balance on the gate, and sometimes I cant. He wants to put me on meds (oh joy) anti seizure ones. But I also came to the conclusion that mocing down might be better due to all of this. I made a vow- I would never let the opinions of others force me to re class. Only if there was something wrong with me. Well geuss what there is. haha (doctor just called with my cat scan approval from insurance.)
This is the first time I have let all of this out. I am happy that I can still race,but with the left side never being the same, it made sense to re class to intermediate. Maybe this is a sign for me not to focus on the racing aspect but work on prooting, I do not know. Funny thing is I can accept this situation without being upset. After all there is more to life than bmx. THere is life itself, and I am grateful to have that.